It's been a whirlwind day in the emotional sense. I want to capture this day for Lia. This day when we became a family of four. This day when I let a bit more of the breath I've been holding out.
Waiting for the phone to ring on our court date was awful. The "what ifs" started stacking up and by 10 am I had to leave the computer (stalking my email) and go find something productive to do. I decided cleaning the mass of toys out of Lia's room might prove therapeutic. I was right. Soon I was gathering boxes for goodwill and moving things into other spaces, all to make room for the baby girl that I couldn't stop thinking about.
At 10:41 am I was in my room and heard my cell ring. The world stopped for a second and I thought, "Let this be it." I then realized I might miss the call and bolted for the stairs. I leaped (no kidding) over boxes and ran to my phone. I saw the number I'd been waiting for. "HELLO!" I yelled. Literally yelled at Ashley. She asked if I was okay. Yes, just running for the phone like a crazed lunatic, that's all.
And then I heard the words, "Congratulations you passed court." And I teared up, but with a beaming smile on my face. Hand to heart. Relieved. We are a family of four.
I called Kevin and said, "HI!" and he replied, "So, we passed?" YEP. We passed.